Brain dump with a happy ending

I am a VERY indecisive person, I will change my mind 7 times a day, seek (nag) validation and options from others..lock in my decision only to wake up and change my mind again. With anything, but more so with my sites and on line decisions. I hate it, why can’t I be surer that my choices are the right ones? Fear of failure perhaps?

I found a draft from a few months ago where I was going to ask how people juggle your real and on line life. At the time I had just started a new IRL job, my first ever full time, outside of the house job. I was also working 2 on line jobs which were another 40hrs a week combined..and of course there were my site. I woke up, worked, went to work, worked, came home, worked, then sleep. Rinse and repeat 7 days a week. I started questioning my online life, it was no longer a place of joy for me..there was no time for that. The interwebs, that were for some many years was my happy place, had become 16hrs+ of hell..every day.

Could I live without the internet? I was very close to deleting the lot and walking away, I mean..I’d let my sites go so much as it was..was there any way of saving them anyway? Crazy, yes..I think I had lost my mind. I guess this is where indecisiveness comes in handy. Thankfully after a few months, came to my senses, and ditched the extra jobs. Now the interwebs is back to being my happy place, along with a renewed out look on everything else.

Looks like there maybe one casualty in all the sites..in a good way though I think, not 100% on that one..but I think it will be the right decision for all involved..I hope.

This week I have finally secured www.AllforWomen.com. When I first started All for Women (6 years ago in January), it was taken by another dead site..I want to focus locally, it’s OK I won’t need it. But over the years realised I really did, if nothing more than for piece of mind. In that time it expired and was snapped up by a squatter who was redirecting it to a soft porn dating site (which is a little awkward if people leave off the .au )…nice. I did try to contact the owner, but the price he wanted was ridiculous. So I sat and waited, hoping each year he wouldn’t renew. Finally this year he didn’t, but it went to auction. So in a 3am biding frenzie..I won! And it is now officially mine!

In other AFW news, Nuffnang is totes rocking my world right now, and it’s not just about the money..though it is very nice. I am looking to hire some writers in the new year *hint hint* If anyone is interested

I have FINALLY found a coder for THE list, a wonderful coder. He isn’t in india, and isn’t going to run off with my money. Those in the the know, will know how hard I have tried to find someone to help. How many people have promised big things, and delivered nothing but disappointment. I had pretty much given up and was just going to shut it all down, if nothing to stop the flood of emails So I look forward to working on this in the New Year, and hope to bring you something awesome!

I am really enjoying my IRL job, getting paid to do what I love with a great bunch of people. And even though the last few months site earnings have been great, so I don’t HAVE to work, I’m just really enjoying going everyday.

So I think that has been a positive end to the year, with some exciting things to look forward to in the new year.

Look at that, a whole post about feelings, and personal stuff..and not a puppeh or kitteh in sight. Better fix that