May 2nd is my Dad’s birthday. He would have been 54 today.

This is the anchor tattoo I got 3 weeks ago, with the cupcakes. My sister and I got matching tattoos, in memory of Dad. She got hers on her wrist, mine is on my back. It is not finished, I am planning on getting some swallows and stuff to finish it off soon.

He was in the navy for most of our time together, and it was a huge part of my life. It was his everything, he left the navy after 20yrs of service..and not long after left us too. A bit like it was the beginning of the end, all those years ago. His life was never the same.

We have yet to lay him to rest, well at lest I don’t think so. When I got in contact with his sister, she was all for getting in touch and catching up and seemed genuinely happy. Then thing went a little cold.

She said for Stacey and I to decide what we wanted to do with his ashes. I had decided, scattering them from Garden Island. She said she would speak to their parents who would be in Sydney at the end of April and get back to me, haven’t heard from her since. I know I should probably ring, but the vibes I got from the last call were not so welcoming.

It’s all still so up in the air and unfinished, sometimes it is hard to remember that it really has happened. I still look at men that look similar to him when I am out, as I always have..hoping that one day I might just run into him shopping.

It would have been nice to have him layed to rest and finally at peace for his birthday. Hope is having a great day anyway!

First visit to the gym today in 3 weeks. Due to the school holidays, and tattoo..I haven’t been able to go and really missed it. 3 weeks off, and about 100 cupcakes later ( I didn’t eat ALL of them tho) I was pleased that I had still lost weight in my time off.

Been a little protective of the cuppies, was a little obsessed with them healing. Lots of love and cream, and they haven’t seen the inside of a shoe in 3 weeks. Forget all about the other one I got with my sister the day after the cupcakes (still trying to get a pic of it, the man pet can’t drive the camera..and it’s hard to take a pic of your back)

Today was the opening of the brand spanking $5.5million renovations at the RSL Gym that I am a member. I have been looking forward to all the spiffy new toys to play with for months, couldn’t wait to get there this morning.

I knew it was going to be fab, but I was just blow away by how cool it is. Compared the the poxiness of before. They are saying it is the biggest gym in Western Sydney.

Lots of great new staff and services. Going to try a spin class tomorrow, they never offered those before. Afterwards, I am looking forward to trying out the spa and sauna. They had these before, but they were a bit blah..and were usually full of older men. They now how beautiful new change rooms, and in there is a spa and sauna.

Finally after months of nagging, managed to get the man pet to sign up..looking forward to dragging him along.